Before tubing (about 6 months ago)
after tubing (about 6 months ago)
this isn't me tubing, but I am pretty sure I looked similar including the leg sticking out to the side. (about 6 months ago)
This past week has been busy, jam packed, and constantly moving, but at the same time I have had several times this past week where I felt sad, depressed, and lonely; to the point of crying uncontrollably. I feel like I don't have a lot of people to turn to and really open up to. Everyone has their lives and they are busy; I don't want to get in the way or bother them. My heart has seriously been aching; like the emotions in my chest are causing my heart to physically hurt and then all I can do is lay there and cry. Is this normal?
There have been good times this past week. On Monday I went to Sea World with the Pre-Veterinary Medical Association from my school. Everything was paid for, except for food, which was a bomb deal! We got to walk around ALL DAY long and look at the animals. Around 1:30 we went on a 'behind-the-scenes' tour and Sea World hooked us up since we are Pre-Vet students so we got to meet one of the lead veterinarians there. He talked to us for a good hour about what goes on there, he showed us really cool xrays of seals, sharks, penguins, hedgehogs, birds, seahorses, and turtles. It was an awesome experience.
I hung out at my parent's house on Tuesday and Wednesday, which was good times. I actually got some work done. Unfortunately I was so busy that I was not able to get my graduation pictures done so I missed out on that. I am so ready to graduate! May 12th...
I want God to heal my heart from everything and help me to be content in where I am in life right now.
Comments (3)
Do you believe He can heal your heart? I think that is the first step, belief and expectation. (Psalm 5:3)
(I think the crying is normal).
@EthanHelm - I used to feel content and happy, but circumstances in my life are tearing me up and for some reason I am having a hard time dealing with everything. My feelings get hurt easier and my emotions are intensified; I feel wounded and the wound is seeping instead of forming a scab. I pray for healing and I pray for God to give me the feeling of content again, but I am just not there. I don't know if God is helping me through something in my life and if this is a deeper issue than I thought it originally was. I just want to to be happy again and be comfortable with who I am.
@hip_hip_hooah - It sounds to me like a focus problem. We tend to live as if we are the point of the world. We see God through our lenses and circumstances. This is understandable, but I believe it is still folly. God wants us to see God for who God is. We are limited here, but our goal is to still see more clearly through the dimly lit mirror. Sanctification is windex. If we focus on our lives, we will be worried and overwhelmed. We must focus on Christ crucified. That's our peace and the only place in which there is rest. Writing this makes it seem easy. It is not. It is the hardest thing we will ever do. But when we do it, we will be glad we did it and hopeful that we will do it more and forever.